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What am I doing?!?

Today was just one of those days where when I left work and drove home, all I could think to myself was, "WHAT are you doing?!?" I don't hate my job. I have times where I like my job. That's not great, but it could be worse. But the point is, I want better than what I've been living.

I know that I'm fully, 100% responsible for where I am in my life. I am not in denial of that. I know that if I want my life to improve, I need to start making better decisions than the ones I've been making for the last ten years. I have habits to break, including making those same bad choices. As they say, old habits die hard. Sometimes I feel like I don't know how to make different choices.

But that is a cop out. The truth is, I'm only 29. Realistically, I'm still young. Very young. I still have the future laid out before me and it's still mine to decide what to do with it. But I'm not young enough to delay that question anymore. And I have spent way too long not actively working towards something. I'm wise enough now to know things won't just fall into place on their own. If I want the good things, I have to work for them. I have to go out and grab them. I have to know what they are, or at least enough of what they look like to recognize them when they are in front of me.

And I also have to accept that I have flaws, and that I will still probably be the biggest thing standing in my way. I have to learn how to get around myself as I craft myself into someone who WON'T stand in my way. Self-confidence is no longer out of my reach. I have no reason not to believe in myself, and therefore I DO believe in myself. Flaws and self-made obstacles included.
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Your result for A Song Of Ice And Fire house sorting quiz...


24 Stark, -13 Lannister, 8 Targaryen, 22 Tully and 12 Tyrell!

Starks are reknown for their personal sense of honor and honesty above all, but as a result can often be seen as harsh and uncompromising. They're maybe not the life of the party, but certainly they're someone who can always be relied on. Their colors are grey and white, and their mascot is the wolf or direwolf. Their motto is winter is coming, a rare motto for its relative lack of boasting, for it lends to the idea that something worse is always on the horizon, and one should always be prepaired.

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Book Meme

Book meme from et_tu_lj

1. What's on your current book wish list? If too many to list, describe what kind of things are on it.
2. If you could get just one of those as a gift right now, which would it be?
3. Are there any books in your collection that you want a different or secondary copy of?
4. When is the last time you sold/donated/otherwise got rid of books you didn't want anymore?
5. Do you have any books written in a language other than your native tongue?

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Another Character Meme!

1. Comment on this post with I VOLUNTEER!
2. I will give you a letter.
3. Think of 5 fictional characters and post their names and your comments on these characters in your LJ.

I was given the letter C by et_tu_lj. (Was given O by her husband. Will do that later, when I have 5 O characters. LOL.)

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Character Meme

Snatched from et_tu_lj
Give me a character (feel free to give me more than one) and I will tell you:

- Why I love them or why I wish they'd go die in a fire
- My OTP for the character
- My favorite gen relationship with this character
- An unpopular opinion about this character
- One thing I wish I could change for this character in canon

Fandoms: Harry Potter, Stargate: SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, BtVS, Charmed, Star Trek (TOS, 2009), Doctor Who, Avengers, Lord of the Rings, Chronicles of Narnia

Fic: The Park

Title: The Park
Fandom: Charmed
Characters: Chris, Bianca
Summary: written for writerverse on livejournal, with the prompt "Ill Met By Moonlight." Chris and Bianca met only once. Drabble.

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Fic: Behind the Burden

Title: Behind the Burden
Fandom: Angel
Character: Cordelia
Rating: K+
Summary: She thinks back to her high school days and finds it is herself she doesn't understand.

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Fic: Worthwhile

Title: Worthwhile
Fandom: Alias
Character: Will
Rating: T
Summary: Snippet set at the beginning of season two. Everything in Will's life is about to change.

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Disney Meme

Taken from et_tu_lj:
Which Disney personality are you?

You are Mulan!

Despite your anxiety, you are loyal to those you love! You are type 6 in the Enneagram personality types. For more information on your type visit here: http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/

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Well if that isn't my Hufflepuff side showing. LOL.

May. 10th, 2012

Title: Rain Culling
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Character: Teyla
Rating: K+
Summary: Short snippet written for a drabble tree. Teyla could do nothing but keep running, determined to save at least the child she held.

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